#POWERLESS OVER MY ADDICTION HOW TO#

But by choosing to do these other things that seem largely unrelated to my sexual problems, I have gotten there anyway. I just don’t have enough power to do that. I could not choose to live lust-free and carry out that choice. All of these are things that I do have the power to do.Īnd the amazing thing in my life is that, by choosing to do these things, I no longer do the dangerous sexual things I used to do. I identify that my addictions and unhealthy attachments made me an. Admitting my powerlessness over certain substances and behaviors is a way that I can engage in the practice of surrender. I can choose to help others, and to live this way for the rest of my life. For me, by admitting one truth that I am powerless over a substance I can claim another truth: That I am fundamentally a strong, powerful person. I can choose to seek to know more about God. I can choose to constantly examine my life and keep it clean. I can choose to make amends for my wrongs to others. I can choose to ask God (as I understand Him) to remove my character defects. I can choose to examine my resentments and fears, and to find a new attitude toward them.

I can choose to do the Next Right Thing in each moment. I can choose to seek a spiritual awakening. I can choose to work the Steps with a sponsor. I am powerless over lust it will take over. So much depends on our own attitudes and we. To make it worse, I always convince myself that I’m really in control, and that I’ll stop early this time.īut there is also good news. We who live or have lived with the seemingly hopeless problem of addiction understand as perhaps few others can. Or (given my extreme modus operandi) I might continue to the point of putting my life at risk again. Or I might feed that lust for hours or days to the point that I end up acting out with myself. Or I might keep lingering in lust until something else displaces it. I might stop again right after ogling that person on the street. What that means is that, when I let lust into my thinking, I do not know how far I will go. “Is that a sentence of death?” But I came to realize that he was right. The first SA member I met told me that I was powerless over lust.

#POWERLESS OVER MY ADDICTION HOW TO#

I desperately wanted someone to show me how to control my actions, because I had flat run out of ideas. I doubted my own sanity, and certainly had been beaten down into not trusting myself at all. I was at immediate risk of death in the extreme sexual things I did, and yet I kept doing them. I had exhausted every avenue that I could think of. One of our newer members this past week echoed a frequent concern from newcomers: How can we possibly gain any victory over our disease if we start by admitting we’re powerless?

Powerless over my addiction